I wish.....I could.......

As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so-called "best friend".
I stared at her long, silky hair.
I wished she were mine, but she didn't notice me like that.
And I knew it. After class she walked up to me
and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before,
and I handed them to her.
She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanted to tell her.
I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.
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11th Grade

The phone rang.
It was her on the other end.
She was in tears,mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone,
so Idid.
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie,
andthree bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me,said "thanks,"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that……
I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.....................


12th Grade

The day before prom she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick,"she said. He's not going to go.
Well, I didn't have adate and in 7th grade we made a promise......
that if neither of us had dates we would go together just as "best friends,"
so we did.
Prom night after everything was over
I was standing at her front doorstep.
I stared at her.
She smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
I want her to be mine,
but she doesn't think of me likethat, and I know it.
Then she said, "I had the best time, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her......
I to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her,but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why.......
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...
Graduation Day

A day passed..... A week passed.........
A month passed..........
Before I could blink,
it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body .........
floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
Before every one went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and she cried as Ihugged her.
Then, she lifted her head from my shoulder
and said,"You're my best friend, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her..........
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why…


A Few Years Later............

Now, I sit in the pews of the church.
She is getting married, now.
I watched her say, "I do"
and drive off to her newlife,
marriedto another man.
I wanted her to be mine
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said, "You came!"
She said, "thanks!"
and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her.
I want her to know that ...........
I don't want to be just friends.
I love her, but I'm just too shy.
And I don't know why...

Funeral .................

Yrs passed,
and I looked down
at the coffin of the girl
who used to be my best friend.

At the service they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years.
..........
This is what it read:
I stare at him
wishing he were mine.
But he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it. I want to tell him.
I want him to know that.......
I don't want to be just friends.
I love him, but I 'm just too shy,
and I don't know why............
I wish he would tell me he loved me…
.........
..I wish, I did too…........I thought to myself, and I cried.