JUST A MOMENT!!

Your pic was open at my laptop screen... umm ...just like that...in fact , missing you (well ..To me he is my life..my sunshine..my everything..I feel that calling him "boyfriend" is an understatement..hence I never called him so). Suddenly reflection of sunlight made me realize that my screen is dirty..reflexively my hands started cleaning it...while cleaning it, I realized instead of cleaning screen my hands was moving on his face...........and I see that I am having tears in my eyes, I was crying.......it was such a mixed feeling that i could not understand. Of course I was missing him, but I never felt like this before. I always missed him but not like this. Finding it difficult to explain.

Sometime it seems difficult to understand a emotion till we experience it ourselves. You cannot summarize a feeling in few words. Feeling could only be understood by experiencing itself.

The Marriage of True Minds.....

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixéd mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose Worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom:
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
- William Shakespeare

Day before yesterday, I was watching a movie on HBO or Star Movies..I not sure which channel, as I am not a TV Buff…and the Movie was called “Much Ado About Nothing”…I read this comic novel once but never got touched by the moral of the story or may be I didn’t get the theme ‘Right’ at that time or in other words I never had an experience of Love…

As I am a great fan on Shakespeare , I end up watching the film…and somewhere between the movie , there was a scene where the above sonnet was discussed by the two character (Hero n Heroine) of the film and that discussion sounded so convincing and related to me that I decided to share my views on the sonnet….

Yes, Indeed its Sonnet 116…I am not here to analyze the poem to sound as love guru...if you have ever been truly in love you can understand this sonnet word by word……trust me

Here goes my translation…

The first line act as intro to the poem which is followed by the actual content………
there should not be any reason that why two like minded people could not unite together..Love neither change with the changing circumstances nor with the any change in beloved and if it changes it wasn’t love…it’s a constant feeling which remain same even if everything changes...nothing and nobody can change it..it is strong and hold on through trials..it does not deviate, if someone tries to entice us away…It is an eternally fixed point which faces all kind of obstacles…always sail it through, no matter what..it is a kind of north star which act as a guide to the lost ship..Love is a constant guide to us as we sail it through life…Love does not operate on clock..it is an everlasting thing...beauty fades with time but love doesn't..it stays till last breath...

At the end poet says that if his finding and description on love is proved wrong, then he never wrote and no man has ever loved...or in other words if you haven't loved the way it is described, then you can't claim to have truly loved...

Moral of the poem...

Love is an absolute. It can defeat time, change and even death. It is the strongest feeling one could ever had.

Moving ON

On an evening while coming back from out- station trip my gadi broke down...I came out and sat on a big rock, rest of the members also started chilling out...As I sat I saw, sun was setting at its best and making it a perfect watch with a bunch of clouds surrounded by... looking at horizon I was completly consumed by its beauty. I fall deeper into the colors of sky...sky, with a tint of red, yellow, blue, orange, crimson, grey, white, blue, skyblue, velvet, purple, aqua, wooly white...makes you to sit idle and makes you to be at peace, calm.. BUT... human nature dominates everything..it can even kill the joy of seeing sunset...And all of sudden i got a hit at my emotional chord...I start looking at my life within a blink of eye..and fell into the deep sea of my thoughts..thoughts of life, experiences, business, joys n sadness, frustrations n fear, work schedules, family, love, relationships..these thought left me completly drained out..alone and sad...but life is not like that..you have to live with all such things, whatever it is..LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MOVING ON..sudenly I heard my driver calling me..and I pack all my emotion in a bag, put the zipper on...with a smile I thought " Is it what, moving on is called ?" :/ Don't know?

Moving on never made someone completely moved on..we always carry all the moments with us, which we have experinced in life till now, whether good or bad...memmories are always there..and we carry them with us to our deathbed...

P.S. I tried to give voice to my feelings..because life touches all things, I am sharing my portion of life, my thoughts ..my views..which originate from the deepest and personal part of mine...

Mera Kuch Samaan

"mera kuch samaan tumhare pass pada he" heard this song number of times but never ever get what exactly it means...

since my childhood I always listen to this song and just baffled by its lyrics..always made fun of it that ..why this lady is so eager to get her things back...like "mera samaan luta do"....I have never ever tried to understand its lyrics..never ever tried to feel the pain of it...kabhi samajh he nahi aaya...till I fell in the same situation...aur when I get it right, I cried for hours....the song is all about "RETURNING All THE MOMENTS WHICH IS BEING SHARED TOGETHER" ... Is it possible to do so? Is it easy to do so?? I doubt!!

One fine day

when he was shifting his room he called up and said " look what i found while packing..its your letter....again he called up and now it was God Ganesh which I gave him... and he started laughing tumhara kuch samaan mere pass pada he....and i was like :( what to say, "my everything is left with you"...everything..i am not the same person..i am not ME anymore...

memories...memories...memories...that is all I have, thats what is left with me.. memories are there for treasure..memories which is beyond measure...no one can take away them from me... and I missing all those moments which i shared with you...those love filled talks for hours n hours... all those petty fights n then patching up...all those funny n naughty jokes and laughed on them...all that time which i spend with you..all those hugs n kisses which i got on my forehead...everything...every single nano second when i m with you..everythinnnnng (i kept safe or i buried it alive or wrap them in golden ribbon.. i don't know) is so precious and close to heart...

P.S. hey...if you are reading this then i must remind you that...mera kuch samaan ab bhi tumhare pass pada he..tumne kuch bhi lotaya nahi he..

Keep it safe....

its okay...

:))

Surya

Happy B'day Surya